i think i might miss you enough to say so

here's the first sad thing. i just thought in my head as i was going to put my computer away... "ah, i'll go crazy tonight and stay up late."
it is only 11:30.

the second sad thing:
i'm sick.
being sick in the summer is the worst thing second only to being sick at college where nobody cares that you're sick; they only care that you don't spread your sickness to them.

i did brave work this morning only because i always have a hard time calling in sick. which is not a self-righteous statement, usually i sincerely question if i'm sick enough to call in. i used to be quite the faker as a child. however, last time i questioned it was when i had the death this last semester at school. it took almost passing out after a presentation in one of my classes for me to call in to work. today it took until i was sure i was seconds from throwing up to finally leave at 4:00. (notice the "almosts" and "seconds away." neither of these things really took place. which always leaves me questioning the validity of my feeling-like-i-want-to die-ness.)

i came home at 4:00, and after a treacherous ride home, i crashed for approximately two hours. which is all well and good in normal alison times, but in grown up alison times that translates to me not being able to sleep at night. i used to be able to nap with the best of them. 3-4 hours were nothing, and i'd still sleep through the night. this summer however, i have had to avoid naps except on saturdays. i also refuse to drink caffeine after 4, try to watch how much sugar i eat right before bed, and panic if i'm up past 12:30 and have work the next morning. it's really disheartening. grown ups don't fill up their snowie punch cards in just one week though. so i'm still younghipspontaneousandcrazywoooosummer.


i just got an e-mail from wal-mart. i would like to know why they have my e-mail address.
along with all the spanish spam i receive.


yeah,
i blog.