walking home from school today the was sun shining, and i was thinking about the delicious wrap i was going to make when i got home (my life revolves around food), looking forward to watching heima tonight at muse, and absolutely thrilled that i get to take a nap today. i listened to these songs:
build voice dan deacon
snow is gone josh ritter
and it all made me feel like this:
vcr the xx
rhyme nor reason the brokenmusicbox
start a war the national
holli and i made a goal at the beginning this semester to be more social. "this means we have to go to stuff we don't want to go to," i said. a lot of awesome things have resulted. some awesome in different ways.
par exemple: we are good at attracting children. and by children i mean boys who are 18. or 17. i.e. we recently went to a show to support a friend. i was talking to the drummer of his band, he was cute. holli will back me up on this. our conversation:
me: blah blah blah oh so where are you from?
boychild: south jordan
me: ah me too! bingham?
boy: yeah! i go to bingham!
me: guhhhhhh
at another show holli had the pleasure of being hit on by a boy who graduated in 2009...
from davis high school. he uttered gems such as:
"i don't know what to say...you should probably say something..."
"there's just so many things i like about you and i don't even know you that well."
we spend a lot of our time walking around with our arms outstretched and thousand watt smiles glowing genuinely from our faces, trying to be as approachable as possible.
except when it comes to the fifth floor of the library. a recent phenomenon in my life. i've heard so much about it, and with my time as an undergrad at byu coming to a close i didn't want to miss out on this experience. it's like a mock-reality tv show up there. except better because they're real people. i'm not very good at making library friends turns out. i think you're supposed to take your earphones out and not actually be studying to do that. whatever. one step at a time.
some of our returns have been positive. like karaokeing with some cool kids in our ward (angela tristan and mitchell). watching dear frankie with the same cool kids at international cinema (which i really really loved. you should watch it). holli went on a date. i didn't go on a date. but i also haven't spoken to a boy under the age of 21 for at least a couple of weeks so there's progress.
it's nice though to come home on a friday night at 10:00 because i feel like it, wishing i had mtv or a lifetime original movie to watch but settling for taking a really long shower and eating peanut m&ms in front of my computer instead.
cheers.
what my hair looks like in the morning.
also a good outward representation of how the last two weeks have made me feel.
but my graduation application was accepted. i love my classes (though they're currently burying me). i have very patient forgiving friends. the new vampire weekend album is quite cheery. i get to sleep in on thursdays.
and today is coconut lime cupcake day at the cocoa bean.
some nice songs:
"There is always something left to love. And if you ain't learned that you ain't learned nothing...when do you think is the time to love somebody the most; when they done good and made things easy for everybody? Well then, you ain't through learning--because that ain't the time at all. It's when he's at his lowest and can't believe in hisself' cause the world done whipped him so. When you starts measuring somebody, measure him right, child, measure him right. Make sure you done taken into account what hills and valleys he come through before he got to wherever he is."
-A Raisin in the Sun, Lorraine Hansberry
(i realize nobody is in the context i am when i post these quotes. but after an entire day of doing nothing but reading and writing to try to catch up in a class it's nice when you learn something.)
(and because this recording gets me everytime, and it being a cloudy winter day i was wishing i could watch some beatles anthologies rather than write papers.)
kiss kiss.
i am:
graduating in april.
terrified of it.
glad for professors that know me/help me out.
a creep.
happy that i'm doing what i want to do.
wanting simply orange.
easily startled.
the proud owner of the most comfortable bottom bunkbed in provo.
in need of new contacts.
thinking about taking classes to become a yoga instructor.
wanting to learn how to quilt.
making a huge list of plans for the summer
happy to live in my ward.
thinking that talking about walt whitman and being naked in nature changed my major.
so grateful that i went to london when i did so i could meet the people i did.
fairly intimidated.
wishing to watch where the wild things are again. and again.
missing my family.
really digging this video.
a grown up.
i am not:
a huge fan of sporting events (shocker).
surprised.
in love with trying to read middlemarch and its 800+ pages in a ridiculously small amount of time.
sure what happens after april.
hating winter.
sad that i don't have to get up at 6:00 a.m. anymore
eating too terribly.
an english teaching major (business casual no more).
a long-term planner.
always good at employing my mind-to-mouth filter.
that big of a creep.
a grown up.
