post-cheerupemokid14-core.

so, i think i am retiring xanga. don't worry you can still expect many dramatic emo posts.

anyway. mostly i'm just waiting for the most excellent sleep mix that i just made to finish burning. i have been trying to perfect sleep mixes for years. alex has come the closest in making one of the better sleep mixes. it's a year old however, and i felt i should venutre out and attempt one of my own.
this is boring i realize,
but you know when you talk so much
about something
that it makes it more and more of a big deal then it actually is?
just kind of blows it up in your mind and all that.
that's how i feel about everything that's on my mind right now
it's all been said, talked about, thought about, written about, way too much.
and the majority of my feelings thoughts and actions have been blown out of proportion.

so i'm tonight is one of my start over nights.
where i try to start anew
with all these lofty goals to be a better person.

because starting now i need to be less selfish
find some real self confidence and believe in some identity
get my priorities straight

and then i think
things might start to straighten themselves out.