it's easy to think that every minute of the day you aren't doing enough for your baby. whether that be because you're finally throwing in the towel with nursing after 4 infections and myriad of other problems or reading sample schedules on babycenter.com for a 2 month old that make you feel like a slob of a mother. (well first i sing to him for two hours then we walk around the house and talk about everything in the house then we sing head shoulders knees and toes because i'm constantly teaching my child then we read a book-- are you kidding me with this woman???).
bleh. i always feel like miss elsie and i are doing just fine until mommy forums come in. mommy forums are for the kind of people who put honor student bumper stickers on their car. whatever. i truly hate the internet. elsie likes her bouncy chair. we talk. we chill. we nap. we eat. we watch too much tv. we read blogs and judge. life's good okay. my baby is cooler than your baby.
but seriously, elsie is a dream, which is something i can't really take credit for. she just came awesome. we're eternally grateful for her sleeping habits and her happy demeanor, and aside from all the nursing nightmares, life's been pretty dreamy since 12/23/11.
people have asked me if i feel "trapped" or if being a new mom is "so hard." to the first i put out a resounding NO. to the second i say yes and no. of course some days are hard. some days baby cries and cries and you have a headache and you are in pain and you just want some taco bell but you don't want to pack everything in the car just to go down the street (just kidding. okay. no i'm not). but the vast majority of days i'm happier than i've ever been, which isn't a knock on any other past periods of my life, but having a baby just brings a level of happiness you've never really known. this tiny smiling person who needs you for everything. to finally be the one that a baby stops crying for when you hold her. the excitement of each new development. watching your husband become a father. and the cuddling. oh the cuddling.
life's good. elsie thinks so too. even if i don't sing to her for two hours every day.
4 comments:
oh jeez. don't read that crap on the internet. it's there just to make you feel like an awful person.
i obviously am not a mom yet, but lately i feel like i have been bombarded with polarized emotions about motherhood. Either it's the happiest thing of your life OR it's like every day is this huge, hard sacrifice. so yeah, i find myself becoming really excited/scared about becoming a mother someday. It's nice to hear a more realistic representation--some parts are hard, but you mostly just chill with your baby. sounds cool.
What Holli said---don't read crap. Enjoy--------you've never heard this before, I know, but it goes so darn fast!! I love you, you're a great Mom and Elsie is a lucky, lucky girl.
Seriously on the internet thing. Oi. It's like punishing myself every time I read mommy stuff online. I must stop! It was so fun seeing you be a mama. Love. 4 infections?!?!
you are beautiful.
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