would you always, maybe sometimes, make it easy

two weeks grizzly bear


i don't remember the last time i was this tired.
everything seems so unmanageable when you're tired.

i.e.:
writing for resumes for internships.
doing anything in class besides drawing dinosaurs
making and not buying food
listening to any music i did not choose
budgeting
not staring at people
walking home from school
not being irritable
deciphering reality from nap-dreams (nap dreams are always the trippiest)
trying not to cringe at the term "ward olympics" (but they did promise brownie sundaes)

in short, i have a pretty bad attitude today.
if this means i'm getting sick i'm going to be all sorts of upset. i don't know if you know or not but being sick in college is the worst thing in the world. nobody cares that you're sick. they all just want you to stay away from them so they don't get sick (unless you're lucky enough to have a roommate like mackenzie who will brush your hair and tell you stories about texas).

so here's to hoping i can return to some semblance of this happy state soon:

all smiles with aaron, the best fake boyfriend i've ever had. 4 years and running. true friendship is buying me food.

(also notice the cowelneck scarf crafted with love by dearest and very talented angela. it only took her two episodes of teen mom to crochet! i'm just as impressed as you are.)


i want to go to bed and wake up to someone holding up the new joanna newsom three-disc wonder released tomorrow. if they could also be holding up my diploma, a ticket to london, a cafe rio gift card, and some shoes that don't have holes and/or staples that would be great. i think i could find a way to not be tired then.